Saturday, July 25, 2009


Just had to report quickly that our trip to Dallas for the day today was a success on many levels. We got to see one of JB's college roommates for lunch, who we hadn't seen in months and catch up (great to see you Kyle!) and found out we will be seeing him more this fall as he is taking some Theology classes at TCU. Can't wait to meet him at Fuzzy's for lunch.

We got to spend some time with JB's Grandma Margaret. I think she is more anxious than us to find out the sex of the baby and says it will be great either way, but we talked about how much more fun it is to shop for pink dresses :)

I also found multiple pants, tops and a dress in maternity clothes that fit great and I am so happy to be rid of the half-buttoned or too tight pants. I am coming out of my "nothing fits and I am going constanly whine about it" stage. Thanks for those who listened to my silly whining and who gave support suggestions for where to find clothes.

Five years....on our way to 50+

JB and I met in 1998...started dating in 2002...married in 2004. We have known each other for 11 years, have been in love for 7 years and married for 5 years. And everyday we love each other more and more. I know that is so cliche, but there is a country song out on the radio right now called "And I thought I loved you then" and everytime I hear it, I think of my sweet husband and our marriage. I won't get into it now, but me and my morbid self have been trying to make JB agree to a suicide pact when we hit 90 because I couldn't imagine a day on this earth without him.

I can't say that life has always been rosey, the first year or two was tough adapting to being responsible and accountable to someone else and making decisions for what was best for "us" instead of "me". Heck, just learning to live with someone was a challenge. We made the move to Fort Worth in 2006 and then remodeled our home which was no piece of cake. Here in Fort Worth, since 2006, JB and I have each changed jobs 3 times - some due to wanting to change and some due to losing them. It hasn't been easy and there are times that I have said "how are we going to do this?". Everytime God gave me the answer "Together and with My help."

In the past five years of ups and downs, JB and I have learned to work as a team. We don't have the routine down perfect yet, but the one thing that makes that okay is commitment. We think 5 years is a big accomplishment - we have known a lot of people that have not made it this far. but we always like to say we are one of the exceptions because not making it last forever is not an option to either of us. Us deciding this Spring that we were ready to bring a kid into our crazy household was a big decision and not one we take lightly -not just for the normal reasons people talk about of finances and lifestyle changes, but we also know that we have to be ready to provide this child the best parental team we can and the most stable loving home we can. We are ready to do that.

I know this is already a long post, but I have just a little more. JB and I are so blessed to have such fantastic examples in our lives. Both of our parents have been married for over 30 years, 3 of our 4 sets of grandparents were lucky to be able to celebrate their 50+ years of marriage together before separated by death and the 4th didn't have a chance to make it that far when Grandpa Polasek died early in life, but they were together until the end.

For our anniversary my Momma and Daddy gave us a book called "A Love the Lasts: Inspring Insights from Couples Married 50 Years and Beyond". She wrote the following in it...

JB and Emily,

I am adding an extra couple although not married 50 years, they do have a "Love that Lasts":

Johnny and Sue Polasek
Married September 20, 1975

Your Dad lovingly tells me how "lucky" he is to have me as his wife. But, he is wrong. I am the lucky one. He loves me unconditionally and completely as I do him. I always feel so cherished, and I cherish him.

So, perhaps that's the reason our love lasts - the fact that each of us believes that he/she is the "lucky" one.

Happy 5th anniversary to you both. May you each always believe that "you" are the "lucky one".

Knock, Knock.....Anyone out there?

JB and I went out to dinner last night for a delayed celebration of our 5th wedding anniversary (which is actually July 17th). We had a great meal at Bonnell's, a restaurant minutes from our house but for some reason one we frequently forget about when we want to go out for a nice dinner. The meal was fantastic from appetizers to dessert, but the neateast thing of the evening came while we were sitting at the bar waiting for our table to be ready.

I guess I must preface that I was not feeling so "hot" that evening. Physically I felt well, but it took me 4 cocktail dresses that wouldn't zip to finally find one that would and although this should elate me that both Junior and I are "growing" it more depressed and frustrated me. So as we went into the restaurant and were told we could wait at the bar (we were about 1/2 hour early), I sat in my snug dress and watched JB order his Crown & Coke and others sip what looked like fantastic glasses of wine and my internal pity party progressed a little more as I drank my ice water and then...THUMP THUMP, THUMP THUMP.

For the past week and a half I have felt small flutters and a few week thumps, but never felt confident they were anything more than gas or my stomach gurgling. These thumps were low on my abdomin and could not be mistaken for gas bubbles. THUMP THUMP, they just kept going. I started laughing and told JB. He put his hand on my belly - which is still fairly unnoticeable to the common bystander, so I am sure people at the bar might have thought us odd, especially when I said "I am pretty sure they aren't gas bubbles!". He said he thought he felt something but I'm not sure he could, even though they were more "to the outside". I can't believe that Junior was wishing us a Happy Anniversary! :)

Friday, July 17, 2009

17 weeks

(ignore the bad hair and no makeup...I had been napping on the couch all evening)

How far along: 17 weeks tomorrow.

Total weight gain: 5 lbs!! I have been trying to consume more calories, but this dang little munchkin in my belly just uses them up.

How big is baby: Well, according to the charts, about 5 inches long (head to rump) and about 5 ounces. Which doesn't sound very big until I put a ruler up to my tummy and I just don't understand where he/she fits! Right now I am really having a lot of stretching and ligament discomfort, so I know the little one is growing.

Maternity clothes: I have been using the Belly Bands that I bought at Target (awesome) and have a couple pairs of maternity shorts. Belly band is starting to be uncomfortable though, as it just shoves the buttons and fastners of my pants into my stomach. I went shopping yesterday afternoon to a few maternity stores around town. Everything is too big or so ridiculously baggy in the rear, I refuse to wear it. I didn’t think I would have a problem getting bigger - thought I would think it was funny, but as I wandered around the mall and saw cute fitted tops and regular jeans and skirts I let myself have an internal 5 minute pitty party for myself and my expanding midsection.

Food cravings: None really. I drink a lot of Boosts (like Ensure only they taste better). In an 8 oz bottle there is 360 calories and lots of other good nutrients and vitamins. I try to drink them in the middle of the night so I don't wake up on an empty stomach (which can cause me to feel sick). I have been cleaning my plate now, which is new for me.

Morning Sickness: Basically gone. As long as I don't let my stomach get empty, I am good. I have some mornings where breakfast just does not stay down, but all in all I am feeling okay.

Mood Swings: None really.

What I think is weird: Well, sometimes I think the whole idea of some little person inside me is strange, and I know soon I will be able to feel the little one and that will be seriously crazy.

What I miss: Well, I must admit I miss drinking a glass of wine or a beer with dinner, sometimes. Other than that and sometimes being annoyed that I have to eat so often, I am good.

What I'm looking forward to: August 14th we will find out pink or blue! We just want to know so we can start working on names and the nursery.